Not me

I have been waking up early and sleeping early. 

Must have been one exhausting day.  But I wake up with a dam of feelings breaking loose. All scenarios, all anxieties, all unfounded fears.  One part of my brains says, its ok; its going to be ok. 

Sitting quietly in the still of the early morning in my unlit room with light coming from the lanai, I realized, "Its not always about me." SO what am I afraid of, just make my contribution.

Deciding

The past mercury in retrograde, the ghost month and whatever reorganization of energies has emptied me out.  I have remained positive, trying to be slow in anger.  Laughing a lot more trying to be oblivious to a nagging feeling.

Work  has been getting on a bit slow, giving in to too much online games as my temptation and blanking method.  It really hasn't help. I know what I am capable of.  But even if I give in to too much work, still feeling blank.

Mornings is sometimes not helpful. Walking up early to little sounds.  Draining.

Unexpected answers come in sometimes unexpected places and can be  standing infront of you.  How much energy should I give to transform myself to I know I dread to thread?

:) Love and light.