All hopes away

I am so super torn right now…

I just want to sleep, sleep, sleep forever and not see daylight. No light matters, no tomorrow assures… I just want to rest and take away these tiredness.

My mind feels like jello with a few parts of gulaman. Not all wobbly but these still firm hurting. My back feels like a bamboo trying to withstand a wind. I just want to lie flat not not get up till the wind has passed.

My chest feels like solid wood. Feels like somebody stepping on my chest with all the wight down. Difficult to cought… My joings ache, it just wants to go limp.

My eyes hurt from crying, my tears burning my eyes. I feel I fire going inside me yet outside it is cold.

I am looking for that spark, that spark of hope. I feel it already has left. It is gone.